How I Healed My Physical Body with Inexhaustible Energy of Now

Relying on the subtle body and focusing on just one step when running healed my body.

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I woke up and dragged myself to the park. After a restless night, my body was exhausted and just wanted to sit, but I kept walking. My eyes were blurry; even the yellow leaves appeared green when I looked at them. Every step felt heavy — how could I even run?

Yet I did — and that’s when I discovered a different kind of healing. I began to rely on something I later called my subtle body to energize the physical body. It’s an invisible field of pure energy surrounding us. We can connect with it by dwelling in the present moment.

I know — you may have heard about “invisible energy” or “cosmic energy,” and perhaps you’re skeptical. That’s fine. In this article, I’ll share my direct experience with it.

How I Discovered The Effortless Run with Inexhaustible Energy

What I described above was one of many mornings I struggled through during my first year in the new environment.

I had developed severe allergies to something invisible in the air. Nights were filled with sneezing, nausea, and suffocated breathing. Even the asthma symptoms I had as a child returned. Each morning, I woke up drained — terrified that my body was breaking down and that I might never feel normal again.

I knew I needed fresh air to help my obstructed respiratory system, so running felt like the natural choice — though I had only started walking and running long distances a few years earlier during the pandemic. Back then, I lived in a mountainous area. After work, I often walked and ran for about three hours at the end of the day without ever feeling tired. I used to get exhausted after just 30 minutes. I liked to entertain the idea of inexhaustible energy and often imagined walking beside Lao Tzu, the author of the Tao Te Ching:

“When you look for it, there is nothing to see.
When you listen for it, there is nothing to hear.
But when you use it, it is inexhaustible.” — Tao Te Ching

Lao Tzu called “it” the Tao. I called it pure energy, (and sometimes, my subtle body)

Yet it wasn’t until I faced this health challenge that I learned how to truly use this energy — to heal my body through running in a particular way.

(This article isn’t about running techniques or physical endurance. It’s about how movement in awareness — became the key to my body’s healing.)

A Transformation Run – From Struggle to Elevation

That particular morning, I woke up with a foggy mind, catastrophic thoughts, and an exhausted body.

I began by walking slowly for about fifteen minutes. My body felt reluctant to move, and I had to gently encourage it with each step. The trees and sunlight in the park softened the atmosphere in my head; gradually, my legs grew a little lighter. Then, a quiet voice in my head said, “Just try a little bit.”

My mind hesitated for a moment, then made the effort to lift the body into a run. “No worries — just one step at a time,” the mind whispered.

At first, the symptoms seemed to worsen. My chest tightened after only a few minutes, and my breath came in short, uneven bursts. I placed my attention on the chest and belly area, trying to draw in more air with each step. I relaxed the whole body so it could absorb more energy while moving. The legs were so heavy. The body just wanted to stop. But I knew if I let it stop, it would give up completely. So however slowly it ran, it was fine. Sometimes I said to the obstructed chest “healing, healing” while breathing in — this helped keep my attention there more easily and calmed the mind. (Later I dropped the word and just rested attention in the area when it felt better.) Gradually, the body grew lighter, and the mind clearer.

After struggling for a while, I heard another inner voice: “Rely on the subtle body.”

As I listened, something shifted. The field of awareness around my chest and belly began to expand — about a few feet ahead of me — yet still enveloping my body, keeping it safe as I ran. Within that field, subtle energy became more visible, almost tangible. I relaxed my consciousness into that space — resting, yet with a subtle effort. I simply kept returning my attention there and whispered “stick, stick, stick”, though not knowing if it would work this time. I just didn’t quit.

(A “scope of attention” is the awareness space that covers the whole action or part of it. It can expand or contract depending on what the moment requires. During sitting meditation, this subtle body feels like a still, alert space of being aware. In movement, it becomes dynamic — the scope of attention in which energy and action merge.)

I began to feel as if some weight had lifted from my body. It was as though the energy within the surrounding space was raising my body up — it was lighter. When something along the path caught my attention, I made a gentle, conscious effort to keep it within that scope of awareness. I experienced both ease and effort at once.
“Oh, this should be effortless effort,” another thought appeared.

When I wanted to speed up, I moved my attention to the lower belly — the Dan-tien, the body’s energy center. The moment my attention rested there, it seemed to awaken dormant energy, spreading vitality throughout my whole body. I sensed a turning point: my body had passed the exhaustion threshold and became very light; the run now felt quite pleasant.

At times, I formed a space of awareness around my aching knees. The pain naturally anchored my attention in one point — the moving knees. The longer the attention stayed there, the stronger and steadier it became. After a while, the pain vanished, as if absorbed into the stillness itself.

Then something happened. My consciousness stood still while my body continued running. A shift in identity occurred: I no longer experienced myself as the body, but as the witnessing awareness — floating around the body and guiding it in motion.

Another voice arose: “Now your consciousness becomes one with the Cosmos.”
I gently let go of that voice too, remaining in the silent space. I knew that if I left this watching position, I’d be pulled back into the whirlwind of thoughts and emotions.

By now, the stillness became so tangible, that I felt as though I could almost float on it. I “looked down” and saw my body running like a perfectly tuned machine. From this still foundation, I could even bring an image into awareness without losing balance. I envisioned a marathoner running ahead of me, graceful and strong. My body simply followed — steady, effortless, unstoppable. This was an interesting phenomenon to witness.

Then came another thought: “I don’t want to stop.”
By now, my body was floating in a current of energy — radiant and ecstatic. The space around me shimmered like a fountain of living energy. I felt that this source was inexhaustible, as long as my body could receive and translate it into motion. All the obstructive symptoms in my nose and lungs disappeared. My mind was clear, bright, and amazed.

Still, I knew that following the thought “I don’t want to stop” could harm the body. The knees or ankles might not sustain more run. So I gently returned to the watching position — listening carefully to see if the legs could bear more.

The Passion That Never Withers

Within just two hours of walking and running, I witnessed a miraculous transformation — from a heavy chest, blocked nose, and exhaustion to lightness, clarity, and a deep sense of liberation.

After such runs, I walked as if I were flying. I could feel the subtle body moving the physical body. At times, the physical form seemed to dissolve into space, and a fleeting concern crossed my mind — Is my body ok? Yet what followed was love, trust, and inspiration I had never known before.

There is nothing like being freed from the limitation of the physical body — stepping into a new world that feels pure, light, and luminous. I had never wanted anything more than to be in that state — a kind of samadhi in motion. If I hadn’t been forced (and chosen) to run, I would never have discovered the power of conscious space. What a gift! (The best gifts are often those I must make great effort to receive.)

But that state itself is just an effect, a passing phenomenon experienced by the brain. And this is an important point: My main focus was to stick to the scope of attention, a point in the present, and enjoyed the air coming in and clearing the obstruction in my chest (another point in the present). I didn’t try to get rid of the obstruction or to get a certain feeling. I just rested in the scope of being aware and did the work. The the pure energy came in and did its wonder. The effect or result I was delighted to have was the by-product, organically grown.

The true beauty lies in the alive subtle energy — the current that becomes more available when attention rests in the moment fully.

The true meaning of striving is not to get something, but to open to the source of all existence where lies infinite energy and truth (total clarity or pure potentiality). But the body-mind needs a meaningful reason to be aligned with striving, meaning no resistance to striving. And the most meaningful reason for it is going to the opposite of pain: from being sick to super healthy, from having limited choices to abundance of choices, from being prisoned in mind to totally liberated, etc.

By striving to the opposite, you realize the source of all things. Once you realize this source, striving becomes joy and discovery of miracles.

In the quiet that followed, a line from Krishnamurti echoed in my mind:

“If you have this, nothing matters.”

He once said, “There is energy. When we understand ourselves, that energy explodes. Then you have tremendous passion, not just passion for something. The flower of passion which never withers.”

That “passion which never withers” — I came to see — is the living current of energy (with its penetrating knowingness) that arises when attention meets presence and stays there.

Being Healed after 6 Months

After moving out of the area, it took 6 months for my body to be totally healed. Sometimes I thought if I would ever be healthy again. However, I kept repeatedly asking the Great Mother (pure energy) for healing, and not only that, for super health. it worked, because that’s the direction for me to make decisions that increase the probability of that possibility.

To heal myself, I mainly relied on exercising within that “non-moving space” for both supporting energy and inner guidance, along with supplements and strictly healthy diet, including fasting. I didn’t rely much on medication as I overused it before and saw its side effects.

During those 6 months, I kept running every day, at least 1 hour morning run outside and 30-45 minutes afternoon run in a gym, along with resistance training and stretching or yoga. Somedays I got leg pain and could only walk or run in the morning. But it was miracle that I could run continuously for such a long period. My mind often worried about if I no longer could run. But it didn’t happened. When my body healed, I couldn’t run as often as I did due to knee pain. It was perfect timing, as if there was an intelligence within that directed everything. Of course, I did have some problems with the legs from time to time – not serious – just need to be taken care of: thigh muscle pain, knee pain, ankle pain. If you put the body in that space of awareness, you’d know when to stop or adjust practicing before the body is at risk.  

When running in a gym: the condition somehow made the run easier and more pleasant: the running treadmill encourages you not to stop; the music made the mind more enthusiastic. But relaxing in the space of awareness is non-negotiable, because without it, things can go wrong very easily. The energy and clarity of the space is what makes the process safe.

If you try running this way, remember: Your body runs, but your mind rested in one point in the now.

Actually, the point of power (inexhaustible energy and clarity) is in the point of rest; resting in something in the NOW: the breath, or a fixed area of pain (safe, healed), or the scope of attention (more dynamic - moving target), This point helps anchor your consciousness in the background stillness - the present - where pure energy is supplied constantly.

The easiest way is to rest the mind in the breath - the lower belly, especially at the beginning of your run. You will have a sense that you never run out of energy. Once the energy comes in, you can rest your mind in a part that is in pain and it will be healed miraculously.

Please don’t misunderstand that inexhaustible energy of the present is feeling good. The body will feel good at a certain point, but usually it needs to pass through discomfort or the exhausted point first, then comes the turning point when it feels effortless - enough heat for the water to be boiled.

As the energy of that point of rest grows stronger, your run automatically become stronger. Let the effect happens by itself. Don’t recall an effect in your new run - or you may miss the most precious thing: the pure energy of the moment. Get out of all concepts, memory. Start each run fresh - enjoy something in the run itself, and you’ll see each run will never be the same.

Reflections:

• The N. 1 Position of gratitude for goodness of life right here-now:

  Without gratitude for the life we’re experiencing, nothing has any meaning. But with gratitude, everything has something miraculous in it.

  When your body doesn’t want to do something, say, exercising. Instead of forcing it to work out, you pause for moment and acknowledge what good health can make your life much more enjoyable and how exercising brings you good health. You will see the effect. I think, gratitude is the greatest bridge that connect us with the world of infinite energy and clarity of the present.

  Also, there are infinite goodness of life around us all the time: It can be some parts of your body are still well. It can be the still, peaceful mind that sees through your situation while the personal mind is panic and makes things worse. It can be some conditions such as time and money that allow you to take good care of the body.

  Acknowledging abundance of good things we’re having now, regardless of our situations eases the burden of anxiety that causes unnecessary thinking. It brings the mind to the infinite energy and clarity of the moment — the true way out of both difficulty and the mind. This is the most powerful gratitude “practice” - according to Eckhart Tolle. The greatest miracle is our consciousness, the source of our existence. Without gratitude, the mind often exclusively focuses on the pain in the body and magnify it through lament.

• Prioritize The Space of Seeing (being aware, deep listening) over Thinking

  I still don’t understand exactly how my body was healed when it was moved in mindfulness, in the space of seeing. But the below is what I get from practicing:

  When you lose the space of seeing you also lose clarity and the source-supplied energy. Sooner or later, you’ll surely make mistakes, big or small. And remember: Small and big mistakes are no different - they come from the same source - lack of sufficient seeing. (Don’t be too confident when you just make small mistakes). And once clarity is lost, the result of your action will be undesirable, surely. One clear, fully conscious step (blessing) is worth more than million hurried steps (disaster).

  I realized that life becomes difficult when I prioritize thinking and feeling over seeing, listening. When we’re in chaos, thinking often doesn’t help but cause more troubles - because it’s distorted by the energy of worry. When we’re caught in the energy field of anxiety, even thinking million thoughts won’t help. However, just one single moment of clear seeing can take you out of troubles. The correct answer just appears from nothingness.

  “Correct answer” means seeing truth of a reality. “problem” appears when we see reality from a mental state, which colors the reality. Only the still space of awareness, which is free from all mental states, can see truth. When we take action from being aware, there is no resistance. When we make a decision from sufficient seeing or being aware, it’s complete. There is no looking back; no regret.

  So, all juice is in the space of seeing. This space of seeing can modify itself into many shapes, depending on the reality it applies to. It can be:

  • Your scope of attention in action (or your alignment with the reality you’re in.)

  • Your subtle “body of peace” when the energy of attention dwells sufficiently in the present and expands.

  • The harmonious background of stillness on which thought and emotion appear and disappear.

  • The fertile soil that nourishes any seeds (ideas) planted in it.

• The beauty of welcome-challenge attitude: it’s the direction that opens to the infinite.

  The bigger the challenge that naturally appears on your path, the deeper you dig within, the more wellspring (life energy and wisdom) comes forth. It’s just like breathing in-out: the deeper the breath in, the longer the breath out; the deeper the abyss, the higher the mountain. Balance is created.

• Target one issue continuously until it’s done - The miracle of a continuous process

  I’ve realized that the “formula” for reaching a turning point — in any goal or process — is actually very simple: put yourself on a “track” and keep “running” until you naturally arrive at a satisfying point. This means you only take joy in the rewards that come from that track itself.

  For example, when I was on the “track” of running, my rewards were: the oxygen in each breath, the greenery along the path, the subtle current of pure energy, the unmoving stillness inside, and the lightness and vitality in my body at the end.

  If, during the run, I had started thinking about a good meal and indulged that thought, I would have stopped before reaching the turning point — and I would have missed the miraculous shift, the discovery of pure energy.

  Why can this “formula” apply to any process? Because the pure energy of the present moment does most of the work for us.
  Our part is simply to show up — to be there, engaged in the track we’ve chosen.
  When we stay in that field of presence, the work completes itself through us.

  So: Keep the issue in mind, comeback to it as much as you can, you’ll be amazed of the power of consciousness (awareness, attention). This continuous process is magical: you can tackle any issue. Sufficient attention or awareness applied to anything issue can reveal its nature, and thus, the answer also is revealed. On the contrary, the only cause of problems is the lack of our attention or awareness to the issues.

  A “continuous process” can be 1 hour of continuous run in the scope of attention and energy was emerged; six months of continuous priority of healing and healing happened, or two-day silent retreat, or a 3-day fast, or tidying up the whole house at once, as Marie Kondo suggested.

  six years of continuously asking “What is my life’s purpose?” and one day you said “Oh, I got it!”; or two and a half years of continuously developing the first iPhone by Steve Jobs and Apple.

  You’ll pass a turning point where an effect occurs in the mind - the mind feels satisfied after each continuous “process” and wants to come back.

  Just keep the issue in mind and just come back as soon as you can. You don’t need to do anything big: just bring the issue in front of you and look at it; or, just bring your body to a running road and try one step; in other words: just show up for it. Insights suddenly emerge, ability expands naturally, what was impossible becomes possible. That’s the power of the field that actualizes a potential you hold in mind - as Dr. David Hawkins mentioned.

• No hurry to get out of Hell. When you’re in a crisis, knowing well that Heaven and Hell locate in the same place. The deeper the Hell, the more glorious the Heaven - just like the abyss and the mountaintop. Without Hell, you may even pass by Heaven and won’t recognize it’s a precious place. If you try to run out of Hell quickly, you just fall deeper into it. We can’t get out of Hell by being hurried - because being hurried, we’re already trapped in the mind - which brought us to Hell at the first place through chains of unconscious acts we may not see. It’s not about quick or slow - Doing in the space of seeing can be quick, but not hurried. Also, you haven’t learned the necessary lesson or strength you need - you’ll much appreciate this strength later on the way to Heaven. Use a new tool (space of seeing) and we can create a new reality.

  Stay, watch, and handle your Hell well; this is already bringing you to Heaven. And the way to handle any situations well is through relying on awareness. (What you rely on, especially in crisis, becomes stronger.) How you handle suffering now can help you enter a new world you never knew.

  As Rumi said: “Never lose hope, my heart, miracles dwell in the invisible.” The invisible” here, as I understood, is the field of awareness or the present, with its inexhaustible energy and clarity. You can’t predict what you can do with this energy.

More Reflections

Key to Effortless Striving (making effort and resting in the moment at the same time):

• Knowing that effortless striving is a great way to access Universal resources (pure energy and its information). Without striving, there is no need for the human mechanism to access more energy from the Universe.

• Relying on the non-moving space of seeing to take action or make a decision. Interestingly, this space tends to appear more easily and strongly when we take challenges or face suffering. From trying with some effort —> space opens up: entering the now, fountain of energy - the body of peace appears. we can see many surprises with our ability.

  When the body-mind (feeling, emotion) feels hard to take action, knowing well that you have the second body - the body of spacious awareness. Something else may be possible;.Just try a little bit .

Striving

And the blessing is actually the gap between my current health challenge and my wish for a perfect health. (Yes, you can see this gap as a devastation too - your choice). Why was it a blessing? It creates a meaningful reason for me to strive. In my case, I had to. Also, I didn’t strive in desperation (this just make it worse) but making effort while surrendering to the pure energy of the moment ( my subtle body). By doing so, I recognized the power of consciousness, the source of energy and wisdom.

The good but hard thing about being human is that, if we don’t voluntarily strive, we’ll be imposed by challenges. Because only through challenge or striving can we awaken to the source of our existence. We return home.

How to stay in the space of seeing: - Living in fresh water

• You need both seed (activity, purpose) and soil (background seeing): being in the vortex of G.M = smooth, safe, flourishing. The more you dwell in the background, the more energy and clarity (capital, nourishment) you have to grow the seed.

• You focus on the effect, you lose the energy-clarity, or the seed’s nourishment (root) that sustains the effect (fruit).

• The witnessing-seeing position is the clarity and pure energy for readiness in any act (pure potentiality that can be modified to any possibility). No conflict, attachment, impression to any objects (freedom, liberation). This witnessing position, opening to the body of peace, is the end of suffering, stuck, conflict = stripping into the world of health, abundance, worldly stage. It’s the only source of all magic (pure energy = energy + clarity).

  Miracle is always here-now. How could you see it? Align = rest in the scope = entering the source of healing —> tiny action in the scope = converting energy into healing, abundance.

• Full pure energy with its magic is always here. This subtle, pure energy has its magic in it - as some Masters say: it’s the very substance that creates the whole Universe. Rest in the scope and harvest it! (Just do it - effortlessly) Don’t waste a second.

• That’s the key to effortless striving or effortless discipline.

The subtle body mentioned by some Teachers:

Gurudev said we all have three bodies: the physical body, the emotional body, and the causal body, which is Cosmic. Our emotional and causal bodies are subtle; they can expand or contract. If you know these bodies, you’ll be full of energy and have the healing power. No one can throw you off balance.

Deepak Chopra referred to the subtle body as the bliss body, a formless being without stories or thinking. It is joyful, peaceful, light, quiet, and energetic. He also mentioned the unlimited potential of the subtle body: “You must find the place inside yourself where nothing is impossible.”

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The Space of Seeing - Where All Answers Reside

To find the right thing to do is very simple: Find where the the silent seeing, the still space of being aware is and dwell in that space, see your reality from there; what you’re supposed to do at the moment natural emerges - act from there while being grounded in the space of seeing (act in the scope of attention that covers the action).

Follow that clear space of seeing - the only “thing” that can truly help you - and your only way out out of human suffering - entering the world of abundant light.

Notice that: sometimes you need to wait a little bit for sufficient seeing for an answer to emerge. Being merged in suffering, the mind, appeared as an impulse, just wants to act immediately - this only leads to more suffering. You, consciousness, need to step out of the person’s energy field and dwell in the background of being aware - all movements of the mind dissolve and you see the whole picture of your reality.

The biggest obstacle to see a correct answer is to drop the seeking/wanting/thinking. It’s very counterintuitive, because we have relied on seeking our whole life. Suddenly one day we realized that the seeking or seeker is the same as the trouble maker when it acts as “me” or “mine”. Then you can use thinking as a tool. Then you know the true meaning of life, both as a form (person) and the formless background. And you even thank to suffering, as it helps you recognize your biggest asset - which is right where you are - here and now.

If you're seeking an answer when you feel chaotic, don’t try to force it. Instead, return to the still, unmoving place within you. Sit with that space for a while - you can call it meditation. Then, bring your question into this stillness and ask it for guidance.

You may receive the answer instantly, or it may come later. Don’t rush it. Just keep returning to that inner knowing and gently bringing the question to it. The right answer will come—on its own time. And when it does, you’ll know it. Not with logic, but with deep inner certainty.

You can access instant clarity and pure energy right now, just rest in the space of seeing that covers the action and try a little bit - you then may see some unknown energy carrying your action effortlessly. Full alive energy is always surrounding you - just relax there and do what you need.

If you're unsure how to access that unmoving space within, this short talk by Mooji may help you recognize what he calls “The Greatest Space”.